Below are two prayers that I say/read/write when the emotions are running a little rampant. I say these prayers through the anger, disappointment, laughter and tears. I am angry and confused. I am full of tears and joy. I am tired and frustrated. I am grateful and humbled. I am all of these things and yet I still look to my God for guidance and assurance that things are ok and I am not alone. Who else can one look to for unconditional love and trust but to the One who gave it all, without expectation, without boundary, without label, without broken promise, without disgrace? Who else can one look to without fear, resentment, animosity, and shame?
Nobody else but my Lord God……
MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
– Thomas Merton, “Thoughts in Solitude”
I pray that, according to the riches of his glory, he may grant that you may be strengthened in your inner being with power through his Spirit, and that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith, as you are being rooted and grounded in love. I pray that you may have the power to comprehend, with all the saints, what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, so that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
– Epistle to the Ephesians 3:16-19